Believe it or not, this is my 800th post. Wow... I started blogging in August 2008, six months after Nicholas and Sophia were born and died and about the time we conceived Alexander. Honestly, I dont know where I would be today without the support and warmth from the loss and infertility community. Knowing I wasn't alone... to say it saved me in a lot of ways isn't too far from the truth. And, here we are... 800 posts. Wow.
Today, is March 25th: the Feast of the Annunciation... I've written on it in the past but today, my favorite reflection of the day was on aka The Mom's post; these are her words and they just rang so true for me today: "God could have chosen for His Son any of the great kingdoms and thrones of the Earth. He did not. He gave to Him the most humble and simple seat of all, that of his loving mother's lap." As my own kids were climbing in and out of my lap today, I couldn't help but just marvel at how they know that place is a safe place, a place of love and understanding and all the things I want to wrap them in every day. And tonight, when I came home from the gym and Maya fell into my arms and laid her head on my shoulder and drifted, almost immediately, into sleep, I couldn't help but be humbled by that simple action, that simple grace. As I laid her in her bed, I cuddled up next to her and just smelled the top of her head and felt her melt against me while she snuggled her bear. All too soon, this time will pass and she wont want to sit in my lap or snuggle against me. Why rush them to grow up... Why not just savor these moments of pure, unadulterated bliss.
I think I'm ovulating... I'm on CD 19, and this whole body-acting-like-a-normal-woman still freaks me out... I still cant believe I actually have a pretty regular cycle after a decade of maybe 5 periods all together. It it crazy that I want to get a cycle bracelet??
Well, Peter and I have 9 episodes of Law and Order: UK on the DVR and we're thinking tonight we may actually be able to watch one (if I can stay awake...)
I am so exhausted...