|We've definitely dropped a bit!|
I'm doing okay. I'm tired and I can definitely feel more stretching/pulling/contracting these days than previously. Whether it is because Lucas is on the bigger side or because my uterus just isn't giving as much, I don't know, but it's there! It makes sleeping much more difficult and I haven't had a solid night's sleep in months. I haven't had more than an hour or two stretch in weeks. That's tough, especially with trying to homeschool and raise other kiddos at home when I'm just so tired.
I have been hit the dreaded pregnancy "c": constipation. I actually bought some Colace yesterday because I just couldn't deal anymore.
I see Dr. B. in two weeks for my 36w appointment, then I have only my 38w appointment left. That seems nuts. 2 more appointments over 4 weeks and then, we are done. It's go time. Wow.
Thankfully, my overactive mind has settled and I've not had nightmares for a while. Which is nice. They were getting really worrisome.
September is just about here! The last month "pre" Lucas! Our calendar is done and, just because of the amount of weeks on it, it finishes on Saturday, October 3rd with my ladies luncheon. That is just insane to me. How are we to the last calendar already?
Baby stuff is done. Hospital bag is packed. Diaper bag is packed. There is really nothing left to do except put up the cosleeper (which is here and ready, just not up), and Peter normally does that the day we come home from hospital. So... There really is nothing left. And that seems... weird. Could we really be, dare I say it, ready? Like, all the way?
Overall, things are still good. If one more stranger rubs my stomach or another person tells me that I look like I'm "having this baby next week", I might scream. It's hard, too, because well meaning people are like "well, you could have him and he'd be fine".... I know that. I know he would be fine. But a NICU parent doesn't want to repeat that experience, regardless of how "fine" the baby would be. It's hard when I keep hearing how I "wont make it to October" when that is where my mind is so focused. October 5th is the day. I'd be happy with October 1st, but I just have to cross that threshold. At Oct 1, I'd be 38 1/2 weeks. I really want 39w. It's best for Lucas, since 40w+ is outside of the equation. I just really am praying and hoping we see that big "39" on the calendar. :)