Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Home...

I will post a NICU update once I've been to the hospital.

I'm home. I cant believe that I am sitting in bed right now. I pumped around 4am and havent been able to go back to bed.

My belly still hurts but only mildly. I iced 3 times between last night and this morning. The swelling has decreased and it isnt red. But I'm still ticked that I "irritated" the staples when I'd been home less than a few hours. Ugh...

I'm home. Really. It's so painful to be here. I just want to be there.

16 comments:

Anonymous said...

Dear Michele, Oh Sweet Girl, you have left your heart at the hospital! And I am surprised you are home. And you are right: Bobby and Maya are where they should be in the NICU isolettes with the medical team right there. Oh, heavy heart! As I write I wonder "is she already dressing to go to her babies?" Hold onto Peter; give him support, too. Hold your babies today as often as you can. Loved seeing all the photos of the babies in your arms! Love, PJ

cheryllookingforward said...

I want to say welcome home, but I know that you don't want to be there.
How close are you to the hospital? I'm just hoping you don't have a long ride each way. I hope your staples feel better soon and you get to go see your children soon!

Donna said...

I'm so sorry being home is so hard. For weeks you looked forward to getting back to your own bed...now that you're there...you wish you were back at the hospital! I know Bobby and Maya are going to grow and get stronger every day. Soon they will be at home with you too!!!

Michelle said...

Recovery is, in itself a long painful journey. Please be patient with yourself, keep the area as clean as you can so it heals as quick as it can. Happily let Peter do everything for you. You deserve it!
Love hearing the progress report on the babies. Can't wait till they're plump little tanks. 2 entries in a row! You're spoiling us!

Debby@Just Breathe said...

I'm glad your home but I can't imagine leaving them at the hosptial. But the great news is that they are at the hospital waiting to see you! (I hated those staples) You can actually walk, sit and stand. It must feel really good to do that, minus the c-section stuff. Please keep me posted. Take care & God Bless.

Mother Knows Best Reviews said...

Oh, Michele, I'm so happy for you. I hope you begin to feel entirely better so very soon, and that you can spend as much time as possible with the twins.

Your blog before this made me sob. It's so kind of you to reach out and feel for that neighbor of yours - only another mother of loss can know that wail.

Tash said...

Just read the update of below -- wow. To see that sign -- that would stop me cold, I know it too. I wonder how many people really know what that means and would bother to stop rather than to run away.

Welcome home to you, though I know it must be bittersweet without the babies there. The NICU is a rollercoaster and the back/forth is tiring -- please go easy on yourself. Much love to all of you.

Bluebird said...

Oh my. Dear, sweet friend, I can't believe I've missed so much. I am sitting here in tears, just trying to digest everything I've just read. Congratulations on your babies! They look so beautiful and so strong, and it soudns as if they are continuing to improve. I can't wait for you to have them home with you.

I can't imagine the mixed emotions you're dealing with, on top of the physical pain. You are a strong, amazing woman, and I can't wait till things calm down and you look back and say, "it was all worth it" :)

((Hugs)) sweet girl.

Kandi Ann said...

such great updates. I am so glad to hear all is as it is. You can always work on their rooms and tell them all about it when you go see them. (Possibly one room?) Prayers and Hugs, xoxo, Kandi Ann

Leah said...

Thinking of you and your family Michele.

Anonymous said...

Michele- I have been following your blog since right before you went into the hospital....I am amazed at your courage and strength. I am so very happy that Bobby and Maya are doing well, they are beautiful. Jenn

Carrie said...

Michele, I am so glad your body is healing and your babies are growing stronger, but I am sure you wish those two things were happening in the same place.

Soon those babies will be sleeping in your arms, in your OWN HOME, just the four of you. I cannot wait for that day.

Much love!

Jimmie's Auntie Amber said...

Hang in there Momma. This too shall pass. You are doing an amazing job!

Michelle said...

I know how bad you want to be there with your babies. I am sorry they could not come home with you yet. I am praying that they just keep getting stronger and stronger everyday. You are doing an AMAZING job!

Kristie said...

I know how you feel, and I hope the NICU time passes as quickly as possible. We had to leave our daughter in the NICU when I was discharged on Christmas Eve.

Judy Brown said...

Hey, hon. I just want you to know that my heart goes out to you and I sit and cry along with you each day. These two little ones are a blessing from God and He is in charge. We love you and miss you very much sweetheart. I can't wait to hold my great niece and nephew. May God be with you all each and every day. We love you!!! Tell Peter that we love him and I will be keeping up with you and your little one on here.