NICU Day 12

Once again, a great day. Maya had a few drifts while I held her (and wasnt at all interested in the boobs until after I had moved her up onto my chest... of course...) and Bobby tried to eat chest hair, but otherwise, all was well. :) They both are IV free and sooo much happier. That was the biggest change. They are currently in "growing" mode, just being fed (yay breastmilk!) and putting on weight. Last night, the nurse said "That is their only job right now. To grow and to feed."

Bobby is getting more and more alert on our visits. He opens his eyes and looks around; he looks right at you when you are talking. Maya will do this also, but she tends to love her beauty rest. When it is time for "night nights" she is more than happy to oblige. Bobby will watch you until his eyelids are heavy and he falls to sleep. They are both so adorable in their own ways.

I find it hard to believe that things are going this well. Thank you all for your comments on "Guilt". It's been something I'm struggling with and one of my comments called it "survivor's guilt". That is it. I feel like I've survived something harrowing and I feel guilty for those that havent been so lucky. That is exactly how I feel. And then someone else put it in perspective when they shared their feelings on being pregnant after adoption and feeling that guilt and noted that I would tell her not to feel guilty. And she is right. I would. And I would mean it. I owe it to myself to say the same thing when I look in the mirror.

Once again, all is well at the Haytko house. My steristrips are starting to peel. Dr B said that after a week that might happen and it's okay and that if they arent gone by 2 weeks, I can remove them (dont think I'll have that problem). Today is day 5. Anyone had a c-section or ab surgery and had their steristrips come off prior to day 7? My belly is still tender and sore, and the ridge is still very pronounced and hard, but each day seems to get a little easier. I just am so tired by nightfall. I could sleep forever.

Well, I have half an hour to finish cleaning up from dinner before I have to pump and then fall asleep so we can start our day again tomorrow, so I'll close for now...

*** Please visit Catherine who is remembering her sweet Travis today. The blog post isn't open to comments right now, but send her prayers.***

*** My nephew, Benjamin Noah (I think Noah is his middle name, it was the last time I talked to my brother several weeks ago when he asked if I was okay that he liked the name Benjamin too), was born at 12:37am today! He weighed 8 pounds 5.7 ounces and was 21 inches long. As of my last update, he was doing well. Please say a prayer that his health continues and that his parents embrace their parenthood. ***