Learning to breathe again after the deaths of my twins, Nicholas & Sophia, my son, Alexander, and 6 miscarriages... and finding joy on the journey with my sweet preemie twins, Bobby & Maya, and our miracle TAC singletons, Michael, Lucas, and Ana.
Friday, October 16, 2009
It has been so long since I held you in my arms, Sophia... So long... You were born so many long months ago. As we near the end of your 2nd year, it strikes me that I will never be able to kiss your forehead or hold your hand or watch you grow up. It pains my heart to a degree that I will never be able to express. When someone looks at your little sister and thinks of her as the first daughter, it will bring tears to my eyes and crush my heart. When she grips my finger and smiles at me, I will always see a piece of your spark in her gaze and your precious hand held within hers.
Sweet Big Sister... Sweet Daughter... We love you so much. Today and every day.