Thank you for all of the support. As someone posted yesterday, WE MADE IT. This part of the race has ended and we are now on a new journey, as orphaned parents but as parents of living children too. We are home from the hospital and now settling into a life that we saw glimpses of 2 years ago.
2 living children but 8 babies
16 weeks of bedrest, 9 @ home & 7 @ hospital
almost 28 weeks of a high risk pregnancy
almost 9 weeks in the NICU
And now, a week at home with healthy, almost full-term-equivalent twins. After Mass this morning, our priest introduced them as miracles. Answered prayers. And they are. How awesome it must be to have prayed and prayed, and to see your answer in the flesh.
But for every prayer answered in joy, there is a prayer for which we dont understand the answer. I prayed for Nick & Sophie and for Alex. Yet those prayers were met with an answer that I still dont understand, that I will never understand. And even though it isnt meant for me to get, I will always wonder.
The babies were perfect at church. We went to the 7:30 because it is a smaller crowd and we sat at the front (to keep any sick people behind us). They slept through and didnt wake up until we came home.
Well, it's time to feed them so I have to run for now!
Oh Michele. I don't know. I don't know why you and Peter and your children have been through so much.
I prayed for both my girls as much and as hard as I know how to. I don't understand the answers either.
Michele, this is truely wonderful. Truely a celebration for this holiday season. :)
It is bitter and yet very sweet. I know that Bobby and Maya are not replacements but I am still happy for what God has given you today.
How wonderful to be able to take your babies to church. They are so perfect. Why the decisions are made as to who can stay and who must live in heaven will be revealed when we get to heaven. When I get there I want to send the answer to all the baby lost mothers. This is the worst pain in life. I am so sorry for all of your suffering. Take care and God Bless.
Those unanswered prayers are the hardest to deal with. While I long for the day I have another bundle of joy in my arms, I know nothing will ever fill the gap in my heart Madelyn took with her.
Many, many hugs to you...
I am so happy for you. I know you will absolutely never forget ALL of your babies, but it is finally time for you to smile. Congrats on your miracles. I know you are thankful for them this week, but will still be thinking about the ones who should be with you.
So surreal to read. I can't imagine what it must have been like to live it. ((Hugs)) honey.
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