It is heartbreaking to hear her crying and know that there is so little we can do. We just sit or stand by her bedside, holding her as best as we can through the little portholes, telling her how much we love her. I feel like we've been transported back 2 months. I just dont understand how this could have happened. Everyone told us how simple the procedure was, how Maya would be back to normal in 2 days... And now this. Over a week. And the only reason she is remotely comfortable is the medication.
They did a repeat x-ray yesterday. The patch of fluid/mucus build up that was in the upper part of her right lung is gone, thank God. They saw a smaller patch lower, but felt that it would resolve itself now that her breathing is almost normal. We are so grateful for that news.
Maya is a fighter and she shows that to us every hour. She tries to pull her mask off, she cries her little lungs out, and she fights against the nurses as they try to do even the smallest task. While it is hard to watch because she isnt helping herself by fighting, it is a relief because it is a glimpse of the Maya behind the mask. And when we are rewarded by those beautiful eyes, it is worth every thing. Every little thing.
The weekend will be the big tell. The steroids stop on Friday and by Sunday, we should know if her trachea is open enough for her to breathe easily. Hopefully the longer steroid protocol will result in more healing for her little throat. Your prayers are appreciated and we ask that you continue. We know that she will come out of this. We have hope that it will be soon.
Bobby is becoming quite the eater. He ate every single feed from 9am until his 6am feed was hung this morning (probably because he was tired from his 3am feed where he ate 80cc's!!!). I wish they wouldnt feed him so much because this happens, but at the same time, I dont want him to be hungry. But he strikes me as the type that, if the food is offered, he will eat it. If you stop him at 60, he stops at 60. If you give him 80, he'll suck until you take the bottle away.
Part of me thinks, too, that they hang the 6am feed because of shift change. I dont know that, of course, but that is usually the feed that is hung. So, he either isnt hungry or it's shift change. Just my opinion.
The nurses tell us that they anticipate wanting his car seat this week. We are excited, of course, but it is also really sad for us. We know that Maya wont be with him if he comes home now. We dont want either of them there longer than they need to be there, but we also know how they react to not being with each other, as well as the pain it will be for us to go home with one of our babies while the other remains in the NICU. Right now, it is only Bobby's eating that is drawing his stay out... Is he doing it on purpose? It wouldnt surprise us... :) He doesnt want to leave Maya behind either.
Fingers crossed, prayers said, our little monkey will come off her steroids well and eat 100% right away so she can show that she's ready to come home too. We are hopeful... So very hopeful...
Maya is a little fighter! She'll be back to normal before you know it!
I'm so glad to hear that Maya has so much spirit in her! :) Continued thoughts and prayers!
*big hugs* I'm thinking about you and your little ones everyday, and hoping for a time when it will get easier.
They are fighters!
So glad she's doing better, and hoping that this weekend is a good one for her. Steroids suck - or rather, coming OFF steroids sucks. I don't blame her body for rebelling. Such a little fighter she is! You're all in my thoughts & prayers.
(A car seat! How far you've all come!)
Thinking of Maya and hoping that has a good day today.
So does it mean that Bobby may be coming home this week? That would be awesome ! And I'm sure that Maya will follow very shortly (It's actually very common that one baby goes home earlier. Rarely both go at the same time)
Oh Michele, I would hate to see them go home alone. I pray that all will go so perfectly that these two will get to go home together soon. God hear my prayers.
So if Bobby goes home how did you visit with Maya? That would not be a great plan but the best is that you have two healthy babies.
aww i think bobby IS trying to wait for maya such a sweet brother... and im sure maya will be ok soon
Aw, poor baby! And poor Mama! You're both fighters.
I love hearing about the relationship between your two babies: so precious.
many prayers! So glad that they are talking about the H word!!
Whew! Movement in the right direction.
Praises for Bobby doing so well and for Maya's improvement! Continuing to pray for Maya's full recovery quickly!
Prayers for Maya. *hugs*
they are soooo beautiful!! maya really is a little toughie. i am sure she will show everybody that bobby is not going home without her! i really do hope along with you that they can go home together. i can only imagine your excitement, trepidation, all the feelings of bringing them home.
Happy birthday to your little ones
and Oh! the ongoing saga with Maya is heartbreaking and I am so so sorry. I know she is healing and is fighting and will be fine, I feel it in my heart, but to be with her while she struggles must be so hard, and I am so sorry sweet Michele, what a hard time.
I think Bobby just wants to be with her, you've always mentioned he is calmer when he can see her. I would not be surprised at all.
So glad they are both here and doing so well (because really? they are!) but I hate setbacks for you- i want this all to be forward motion.
thinking of you and hoping for quick and complete healing, and back on the road toward home soon.
Great news. Maybe Maya's the competitive type and if she sees Bobby going home . . . .well. We can hope. Hanging in there for this weekend's news and sending you all my love from a few miles east.
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