So, here we are, on the eve of our "big" bloodwork. Peter and I both feel we are expecting baby #4 (and possibly #5, too). 8:30am tomorrow.... Eighteen and a half more hours to go...
Last night was a rough night. We cried and cried. I think a certain amount of time goes by and then you realize how severe your loss is. It was about the 3 month mark with our twins and yesterday, it was the three month mark with our cuddlebug. Oh, the tears. The hurt. The utter anguish. We just held each other and wept. We read through parts of Alexander's journal and cried some more. We watched a tiny candle flicker on the brownie his father bought to remember our son with after his special dinner and sobbed. And then, we felt that sense of peace and hope that he brought to us in his pregnancy and life. We wrote in his journal and then held each other as we fell asleep.
Thank you for remembering Alex with us. As long as we each remember each other's children, they will never be forgotten.
Will be thinking of you tomorrow. I'm just so sorry there has to be so much sorrow mixed with the joy that I know is to come. ((Hugs))
My fingers are crossed for you guys! I'm sorry this has been such a hard road for you and Peter. I am so glad you have each other to lean on.
I'm remembering Alex with you. And Nicholas and Sophia.
Thank you for updating us with your potentially wonderful news. Although, could you educate me (again) on the lingo (i.e., 13dpo)? I'm on a bit of a learning curve with the fertility vocabularly.
Alex, Sophia, and Nicholas continue to be in my prayers.
everything crossed! Post when you can!
I'll be thinking of you tomorrow and hoping for good news!
Waiting for your news! That grief - oh, how I know it. Glad you have each other to cling to. A single candle - I can just picture it.
I don't know how I am going to get through the day tomorrow waiting for your news, I am going out of town all day and won't be near the computer!
My thoughts and prayers will be with you and Peter though.
Good luck tomorrow! Cant wait to hear your update
Good Luck today Michele:)
I am thinking of you! I know you heart is full of so much love and grief right now, and I know that you can make more room for hope.
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