10

Ten years sounds so long.  But, just as it did in February when we were faced with Nicholas and Sophia's tenth birthdays, it feels like yesterday.  It feels surreal.

How?

How has it been 10 years since I saw his beautiful face?  Since I kissed his forehead? Since I held him against my chest?  How has the world continued to circle the sun, ten times over   For me, wasn't this yesterday?

I went to a tiny, gourmet kitchen shop to find the perfect, decorative bundt pan and made a dark chocolate hazelnut cake dusted with powdered sugar and served with a chocolate hazelnut Irish whiskey sauce.  The kids sang "happy birthday" and had seconds on the cake.  As I was snuggling Michael tonight, he told me that Alexander loved his cake.  It was all I could do not to break down as I hugged him close.

Happy birthday , sweet cuddlebug...  May all your moments be beautiful until I hold you again.