Seven months ago, on October 4, I started to seriously contemplate my weight and the impact it was having on my health, my family, and my life. I weighed a whopping 240 pounds (11 pounds shy of my top weight of 251, which was what I weighed when the twins were delivered the September 13 months prior). I was at a place where I knew that I had to do something. It was more than vanity or embarrassment (although those did play into it); I was killing myself. Obesity has so many health issues associated with it, and I already had the achy joints, hypertension, and high cholesterol; the PCOS combined with my weight had me on a freight train headed towards Diabetes Station. I can't do much about the Hashimoto's and the DJD... They are what they are... But the other things... in my control (at least to a degree). Add to that the knowledge that Bobby and Maya were watching me to learn their food habits and I had hit a low.
And a high.
Because nothing in the last few years has changed me the way that I changed a little over half a year ago. I dont know if it was the motivation to be a better role model for my children or if it was the realization that the power to change was mine alone or if I finally saw the impact that this all had on my health. I dont know. Maybe it was a combination of all those things and then some.
But this morning, when I stepped on the scale for the 7 month, I saw numbers I hadnt seen in several years: 170. It's a special number to me. It not only is a loss total of 70 pounds (so far!) or the number that signifies I only have 20 pounds until I hit my goal. It's one of the last weights I remember of my early marriage. At my wedding, I was 160 pounds, up 5 pounds since college (which was up 5 pounds from my high school graduation). When I encountered pregnancy that first time, I was (you guessed it) 170 pounds. I havent been this weight since late-2000. Even writing that, a tingle runs through my body. (And, funny enough, I thought I was way heavy then!!!)
It's still strange to me that random folks comment on my weight. At church or in social gatherings, or commenting to pictures on FB. I dont see it when I look in the mirror, but I'm starting to see it- clearly- in photos. There is a change. And it isnt just the weight. It's me.
|September 2010: 240 lbs|
|December 2010: 210 lbs|
|late-March 2011: 180 lbs|
|Me now! 170 lbs|