Have I jinxed this pregnancy by (gulp) updating my baby registry for these babies? After Nicholas and Sophia, I wasn't able to delete their registry. I just couldn't. Every time I tried, I would break down. With Alexander, I made the needed changes from a twin registry to a singleton registry. And, last night, I visited babiesrus.com and began to update it. Twin stroller... Two car seats... Dual breast pump... There was some crying and the heartbreaking reality that this registry- that belonged to Nick and Sophie, and then Alexander, and now to these two, beautiful new lives- may end up being another lonely paper trail, full of things that no one will need... that no one will use...
As I was working on it, it struck me that I don't even know what to register for. I didn't know then either. I always worried that I didn't register for the necessities... That we'd somehow be bad parents who wouldn't have something. Who knew that what I wouldn't have would be my babies to nurture and watch grow... Is the registry still devoid of important things? I don't know... I currently have a beautifully furnished nursery, full of baby clothes. I'm registered for diapers and car seats and strollers... That has to be enough, right? If we can just make it?
12w2d... That is where we are. Normally, I'd hold off until 14w to celebrate the end of the first trimester, but since 36w is when the stitch is due to be removed, and our doctor believes we'll most likely go into labor right away, 12w really is the end of the first third of this journey. Is it possible that I'll be able to celebrate 24w? The hoped for 36w?
On a cerclage note, my bleeding has stopped again, although I'm still spotting brownish-pink when I wipe. My lower abdomen is still hurting, just minor discomfort, but it's still nerve wracking.
Well... As usual, I have to pee (no kidding, once an hour) and I'm hungry again. Have to go take care of business!