It seems really nuts that the year is already over. I feel like January sort of skipped me by because I was in a fog of grief. I had just gone back to work after Alexander's maternity leave and I was heartbroken and stressed. February came and we saw Dr Lee and lost another baby to miscarriage when little D didnt implant. March came and we conceived Bobby and Maya. April brought some pink tinting (which led me to think I was losing them), the ultrasound that confirmed two babies, Easter when we shared our news with our families, and when I gave my notice at work. May brought my last day of work and the cerclage, along with bedrest. June was my 29th birthday and I lost my mucus plug; it was also the month that we passed the 16th and 17th weeks, which brought so many thoughts and comparisons to Nicholas and Alexander. July brought us the gestational birthday of Sophia and had me admitted to the hospital. It was the start of the daily countdowns to our milestones... 24w... 26w... the 28w that we were so close to... August=24w; need I say more on how special that was? September saw the out-of-womb exit of Bobby and Maya and had a wonderful baby shower. We celebrated their first Halloween, Maya doubled her birth weight, Bobby crossed the 5lb mark, and the twins were moved in the NICU's Transitional Care Nursery in October. In addition to their first Thanksgiving, the twins both came home, Maya had her eye surgery, and we celebrated and remembered Alexander on his first birthday in November; we passed by our 36w "twin EDD" and cerclage removal date. And, finally, December saw a bevy of first holidays (St Nick's, Solstice, Christmas...); we lived through our EDD and dealt with Maya choking and going to the hospital. We had our first snowfall of winter. I had the first day in almost 2 years where I wasnt in agony when realizing that Nick, Sophie, and Alex are dead. Fleeting, yes, but nonetheless one day.
Peter and I began our life together in 1998... 11 years ago... I love him so much. Here's to 111 more years!
And so, I leave you with this.