Oh Nicholas... My sweet boy. Today is your second birthday, a birthday you wont physically celebrate with us here. Instead, there is a pain in my heart, a broken heart, a heart that burst open with a love I didnt even know existed when I looked down and saw you for the first time. I loved you before you were conceived, but when I first saw you... It was a love that I'd never even know existed.
I often thought about how it would be once you were born. How I would hold you and rock you in the rocking chair that held your daddy and your grandpa. How I would wrap you in the blanket your grandma made your daddy. How you'd wear a christening gown, with your sister, that she made with you two in mind. How I would sing you the songs and read you the books that my mom did to me. I knew you would look like your daddy, I knew it from the start, when we pointed to that first ultrasound image- that tiny peanut that was you- and said "Nicholas"... Peter Nicholas, IV... Your daddy's boy... My little boy. You'd look like him but you'd have my eyes. I deeply regret never being able to see you open those beautiful eyes, but it was worth it because I saw you smile instead. I saw your beautiful, tiny mouth curl into a smile. I saw you reach out and hold your daddy's finger. I saw you, my little boy. I gave birth to you. I held you. I will never forget those moments. They will never dull over time. They will never fade or be mitigated by your siblings. That will always be your time. You will always have a sacred space inside my heart.
Two years. A lifetime. Or not so much. Perhaps only 55 minutes is a lifetime. And even if that is the case, those 55 minutes can last forever. And, in my heart, they always will.
I love you, Nicholas. Thank you for choosing me, of all the women in the world, to be your mother. I miss you so much. But, more than anything, I love you.
We love you.
A mother's love. So powerful. Beautiful xxx
Happy birthday sweet Nicholas, so beloved and cherished.
Thinking of you and your sweet Nicholas today with love.
Happy Birthday Nicholas--I know you are having a beautiful celebration with the angels...
Happy Birthday Sweet Nicholas!!! May you know how much you are loved, missed, and how your life has touched others.!
Happy birthday Nicholas and paryers to your family!
Oh Michele, that was beautiful. Thinking of you and Nicholas today. *hugs*
Happy Birthday Nicolas..and
(((HUGS))) for your mommy!
Holding you, your hubby, and your sweet little boy, extra-close in my prayers today.
Happy Birthday, sweet little Nick.
Love, Aunt T.
This just brings tears to my eyes - so very beautiful, Michele. God bless you, Nicholas, and all of you.
Thinking of you on this very hard day.
*hugs* remembering your precious Nicholas.
Thinking and remembering with you. Happy Birthday Nicholas! ((HUGS))
Happy Birthday Nicholas!
Thinking of you today and remembering too. Your words are always so powerful and I am thankful that you share them with us. 55 minutes is a lifetime - one to never be forgotten.
Happy birthday Nicholas! I hope you will share some if your heavenly cake this Cooper and Brayden. I'm sure you are all having a wonderful time.
Happy Birthday Nicholas
Remembering Nicholas with you. I'm so happy you have those memories to cherish.
Happy Birthday, Nicholas. You are loved.
Happy birthday, Nicholas! What a moving post, Michelle. Your love is so moving. xo
Happy Birthday, sweet Nicholas.
Happy Birthday Nicholas. Remembering you with love today and every day, and keeping your amazing mommma in my thoughts as she misses you so.
Happy Birthday sweet boy! xx
Happy Birthday to you sweet Nicholas and God Bless your special Mommy!
How hard this is for me to read and write...
Happy Birthday, Nicholas.
Happy birthday, precious Nicholas!
Happy Birthday Nicholas
My friend, I'm thinking of you. Love, Fran
Happy Birthday, Nicholas! (((HUGS)))
Thinking of you and your family.
Thinking of your sweet little boy, today and always.
Thinking of all of you!!! Happy Birthday Nicholas!!!
Hugs from Pittsburgh!!!
Happy Second Birthday Sweet Nicholas! You are forever loved!
Michele, such love you exhibit. It's truly admirable and one I hope to have as well one day. Such an inspiration to be the mom I hope to one day be.
Happy belated birthday, Nicholas!
I'm so sorry I'm late. But I'm saying a prayer for your sweet Nicholas, a life lived way too short. And hugs for you, mama.
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