Much love, Aunt Sarah (part 2)

Another beautiful tribute from a beautiful aunt :)

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Happy Birthday little one!!

Four years ago today.  Wow.  It was so much chillier than today, but it wasn't as rainy.  I ran both days.  The run four years ago was a five mile race which is special to me for many reasons, but the most important of which is that the race shirt has your birthday on it.  The shirt is in "my room" and your Mom and Dad's house and I regret not remembering to have it with me today.

I miss you, but for some reason I feel peace this year, like we've come to an end of a cycle and now I've reached closure.  Maybe it's because the Giants again were able to pull off a win against the Patriots in the Super Bowl.  Maybe it's because I am again running the Broad Street 10 miler like I did the year you were born.  I can't put my finger on it, but I feel like this is how it's meant to be.  It doesn't make me miss you any less, but it does take some of the hurt away.

I dedicated a lot of training runs to you and Nicholas four years ago, and the complete joy of finishing my first major race was eclipsed by the fact that when I started training in January for that race in May, I envisioned your Mommy on bed rest in the hospital on race day, sending me good vibes, and possibly watching the race on TV while incubating you and your brother.  And I would stop to visit her in the hospital on my way home.  But I guess that wasn't meant to happen so I drove by CHOP with a tear in my eye. 

I will continue to run with you and for you.  Please watch over me as I train again this spring, and guide me through to another momentous race, but maybe this time without the achilles injury.  :)

Much love,
Aunt Sarah