Learning to breathe again after the deaths of my twins, Nicholas & Sophia, my son, Alexander, and 6 miscarriages... and finding joy on the journey with my sweet preemie twins, Bobby & Maya, and our miracle TAC singletons, Michael, Lucas, and Ana.
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Waiting...
Thanks for all the messages checking in... We are still in a holding pattern and waiting for news about the status of Michael's adoption. I'll post when I know something.
I still think of the little girl I was going to adopt straight from the hospital. I had her older brother(3 yrs) in my home waiting for them to birth and say good bye and my house caught fire. No home for the baby, no way to recoup fast so at the time I felt I lost her. Now (20 ish) years later I am glad for the kids that they got to stay together and feel they parented her as they did her brother, with good standards and love and that is how it should have been. All that to say, I know the loss you feel, and I know you feel happy for them too and to feel both at one time is a spinning feeling for me. Still. I almost had "my" daughter. If only for a short while. I don't even know what they named her because I handed them their son and had to move immediately to a hotel not close to them. Hugest hugs. xoxo, Kandi Ann
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I've been praying and wondering what's been going on! I wanted to ask but wasn't sure since the date had come and gone.
I hope the process to Michael is smooth, peaceful and soon!
Lots of Love
xoxoxo
we miss you...
good luck. we will pray for michael's arrival...
Thinking of you!
Been thinking of you. Thanks for the update.
xo
I was thinking about you and hoping things were going well. I'll keep hoping!!
I still think of the little girl I was going to adopt straight from the hospital. I had her older brother(3 yrs) in my home waiting for them to birth and say good bye and my house caught fire. No home for the baby, no way to recoup fast so at the time I felt I lost her. Now (20 ish) years later I am glad for the kids that they got to stay together and feel they parented her as they did her brother, with good standards and love and that is how it should have been. All that to say, I know the loss you feel, and I know you feel happy for them too and to feel both at one time is a spinning feeling for me. Still. I almost had "my" daughter. If only for a short while. I don't even know what they named her because I handed them their son and had to move immediately to a hotel not close to them. Hugest hugs. xoxo, Kandi Ann
So sorry, I have been thinking of you alot and I am sorry your heartbrkening (((HUGS)))
Very hard situation...
Just coming by to send some more love today! Thinking of your family and praying for you as you grieve this loss too!
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